Spoiler: I Hate the Music
Chris: Welcome back to
Conversations With My Nightbrain.
I'm Chris, your host, and
I just have a confession.
It's been since May, so, uh,
whatever that is, almost four months
since I last recorded an episode.
Anyways, we're just gonna
shuffle on past that.
I've realized lately over the last
month or so, I want to record something
and my brain stops me because I
hate the music, the intro music.
So I'm not including it right now.
I'm not recording with my gear.
I'm just recording right into my phone.
Doing it simple, quick and easy, just to
publish something to get over that little
hump that my brain keeps telling me, Hey,
you haven't recorded in a long time and
you don't have your gear set up right now.
And remember how you hate the
music right now that you made, even
though you loved it and thought
it was amazing when you made it.
So.
All that being said, that's what's
been keeping me, or at least that's
my excuse that's been keeping me from
investing time and energy into this
podcast is that, oh, I hate the music.
I also kind of don't
know what to do with it.
I'd like to do it as a thing where I can
interview and have conversations with
other people about things that are keeping
them up at night and just kind of like,
a little fun, light hearted therapy like
I've talked about, group therapy session.
Um, but maybe it's just a solo thing that
I sometimes talk with other people about.
But then I get nervous about doing a
solo show where I end up never feeling
like I can actually talk about something
because who knows who's going to judge
me for what I say, who's going to get
angry for my thoughts, and if my thoughts
are worth even being angry or mad about.
That whole cycle kind of just spins
me around and around and I think, shut
up, just do the work you have in front
of you and then get off the computer.
Don't worry about podcasting.
So that's where my brain's
at September 20th, 2023
With Twitter imploding and everything
kind of flying all over the place in
terms of where people are keeping up
with community and online connections
and feeling like everything's
kind of scattering to the wind.
I kind of want to have a place
that I can direct people to
that's like, Hey, that's me.
I have my blog chrisenns.com, but somehow
I feel like I should have a podcast.
And I just can't decide if Conversations
With My Nightbrain should be that
vehicle where I just use that as a way
to put my thoughts out into the world,
or if it should be something entirely
different and overthink myself into
a black hole and end up just scanning
Netflix or Apple TV plus for something
to watch instead, because that's easier.
All right, there.
Now I can say I've published a new
episode recently and move forward.
So, shut up, brain.
I beat you this time.
Thanks for listening.
Have a great day.
Bye.
